The Journey is Rarely a Smooth Road.

It has been so tough to get back into writing, I always want to and I know it will be good for my mental strength, but I just haven’t been able to get motivated. With so many things to do and so many big life changes, it is hard to keep track of everything going on. I’ve experienced more burn outs in the last year than I thought possible, yet somehow I keep on going one foot in front of the other on this path called life.

I am not even sure what I want to write about, after experiencing so many hard circumstances I’m more inclined to write critically and cynically of others but what would be the point, that’s not who I have been created to be. So instead I remind myself that the Lord disciplines those whom He loves and that it is an honor and on the day of redemption I can join the celebration at the dinner table (and eat all the gluten I want)!

I think sometimes God calls us to let our dreams die, over and over and over again so that He can continually give them back to us in a refreshing way. Well I guess I am at that point yet again, my body is fighting for healing, mentally, physically, emotionally and I am awaiting the Lord’s direction, taking one small step at a time.

I have been so blessed with the most amazing, kind, caring man and two sweet dogs, climbing all over me and begging for my attention as I sit here trying to write.

I look back, wondering why I went through the trials that I did, why perseverance has become more than just a word on the page but a reality of everyday and I realize I just need to sit, breathe, relax and trust in God to show me the next road to take. I read a great devotional the other morning it went something like this…

“In the annals of heaven, the saddest records are those that tell of the many who ran well, with brave, stout hearts, until in sight of the goal, of victory, and then their courage failed”.

…What a great reminder to stop and listen to the still small voice. I sure don’t want to stop and loose courage when the victory is sight.

Short and sweet, but maybe this can be the first of me learning to open up my heart again.

The journey is rarely a smooth road, but so worth all the bumps.