Wow, another month gone by, time is flying and I'm glad because every day is a little closer to warmer weather (hopefully) and everyday is one step closer to becoming something more. This last month has been filled with one problem after another, back problems, health problems, car problems, work problems, interviews not going well, more school and qualification needed and no money to fund it, getting my celiac biopsy done by a surgeon that doesn't even believe in celiac and just wants to prescribe me more drugs so he can make more money and hours spent in emergency stressing about the person I care the most about. When my friends needed me I was there for them and I made sacrifices to do it, where have mine been the last year when I've been holding on for dear life? I guess I must have done something wrong along the way. The list could go on and it does, i'm so frustrated and forever exhausted and I look for a break, then there seems to be more drama, my leisure riding time turns into bickering with every body knowing a solution and no one willing to put in the work. I go to work and daily I come across the rudest most self centred people, I always have viewed it as my "mission" field to spread some love of the kingdom, but some weeks I just want to throw in the towel. We work so hard at the store to give great service and when people proceed to speak ill of myself or others it just adds to list of frustrations. When someone bully's me, I can stand up for myself, I get a lot of practice, yes it still hurts but I just learn how to move on. But when someone bully's someone else who can't stand up for them self, that drives me absolutely crazy, I have zero tolerance for it, never have and never will. Frustrated is the word.
I was greatly encouraged by my devotional this morning, once again God's love didn't fail me.
Victorious Living
"Do not be like the man who hid his master's talent in the ground because he was disgruntled with his circumstances. He gave up and took the easy way out: blaming his situation rather making the most of his opportunity. The truth is, the more difficult your situation, the more treasure there is for you to discover in it. "
{Jesus Lives- Sarah Young)
So I take my eyes off of the negative and I look at all the good God has put in front of me. If I haven't found my career yet it is because God must have something really great for me, If I can just persevere with patience trusting the Lord I will find it. I have to believe that my dreams can come true. I will get there, and when I do I will be glad that I didn't give up and settle for less than all of what God has for me. So the sowing and the toil continues until God decides the season in which I will bear fruit.
Without God I am nothing, absolutely nothing and with Him I can do anything and nothing is impossible.
Thank You Father for Life.
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